Ahh the love is coming

am sitting here trying to consolidate my student loans and my life....or maybe not consolidate but take stock. Love Parade is this weekend and I was trying to remember last year's Love Parade (how could I forget - really).

Last year started early with an interesting combination of Heather and Tom and myself....following floats and stopping for beers and finally purchasing some carry- along brews from a very busy convenient store... to catch up with Kevin and Brit and eventually Scott and Hsiao.....Stephen with Chicken pox....Billy with Hats...Gun and Michael Harris......and mayhem in and under and around trucks and floats....did ensue.

It was fun stuff and a good reason to wear my red fur coat (likely to be worn again this year). But this year will be even better and bigger and will end at Civic Center instead of near SBC. But I was thinking about how much has changed....

Last year my friends Heather and Nathan were broken up - though we did make Nathan join us for some dancing festivities...it seemed bleak....but now the two of them are together again and living in their brand new apartment....so love parade perhaps did reunite some...and bring some love.....

I haven't been so lucky (ok - I am sooo lucky)......nor have I been terribly unlucky (ok - maybe a little - but that is life - don't cry for me Argentina). So - I look around and I see all this love and I want some too....but that takes time and luckily I have plenty of that. Money...I don't seem to be able to have that.

I always thought going to law school would help increase my net worth...not decrease it...or at least assure me a career. But such is life. Struggle and pain must yield something or give some wisdom. But two Bar attempts and about 25 temp. jobs later.....here I sit poor of money, unemployed, and sans beau. Oh woe is me - I guess Nirvana wasn't around this turn...maybe soon. And I am over the problems.....I can laugh at almost anything these days....really I am just looking for solutions and happiness. I figure that I am just starting to realize that the staus quo never really made me happy and never really will....and that is just fine....I can follow my bliss whether it leads me into poverty, into South Korea or sitting right here in the beloved arms of San Francisco.

I have found that there are great people surrounding me. I get support daily from my friends and I hope I give it back. And that is what keeps bringing us back together....love....love....love. Just like Heather and Nathan's love only different.....And so we get together and we fucking dance....and make our own music.

So the year in review...has been real rough for me but I got to do a lot and had it better than a lot of folks (no tsunamis or hurricanes at my door - not literally)...and there is still love.....and smiles ...and moments of happiness I'd never give back truly - thousands.....and it has been good to see some of my friends get to better places in relationships, houses, jobs, happiness....and that is reason to celebrate...and play some great music......

So to loving love and the love parade...and some happy endings....and realizations that nothing in life comes without some effort...and with that in mind.....you should all go to my friend's party (there has been a lot of effort put into this)....www.loveleeparty.com
And I will see you at the parade as well.......carry on Lovelees.....you all rock!