A Diet?

So...It is time that I admit that I gained some weight. I have been hoping and wishing it away. I have been alluding to it amongst friends hoping they would say, "No you look fine." (or even better Thin - You look Thin)but I am met with silence. Alas, I went into depression of the internal variety and now I must realize my mental powers of thought are simply not that of Ghandi's. So - I have to diet...what a strange word. It sounds horrible. It sounds like die....

So - I will attempt to take you on my journey with me. For, mainly, my amusement...because Lunch seems horribly - painfully - boring when dieting and I speak from nearly 12 hours of experience (lifetime total).

So Step one....I am not going to tell you what I weigh or my size, but i will tell you that one year ago I was a size 4 and about 120 - 125 pounds at 5' 5" and that was a very good size for me. I do not have to return to that per se....I would be happy with a size 6 and say 130 lbs. - I think but let's just rest assured that I am not very close to where I started. In fact, it is depressing how far I have fallen. That said, at a size 4 and 120 pounds - - I was very very skinny (women lie all the time) - so perhaps I would not look lie an elephant to you (at this point) but I am not model slender.

So - my first stop is the cabbage soup diet. I started it this morning and it is 1:45 pm....and I am still going. I haven't made the soup yet....but i plan to make it tonight.

Day one is eat the soup and fruit and water, cranberry juice and tea (unsweetened).

So far I have eaten a plum and an orange and had one water.

I am not hungry....honestly.

Not Yet.

but i have had to stop myself from getting coffee candy from the office supplies...

These thought were more based in habit than rebellion or any real for of addiction (or that is my feeling at this point - if I wakeup at 3 am and sneak some candy - I will let you know).

So...Here we sit...and wait....the weight.